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                Linda Carroli
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speak   a hypertext essay

                                speak
                                  love
                                ethos
                                 open
                                 body
                               hybrid
                            foreigner
                                  care
                              passion
                                 other
                                   risk
                                  scar
                                sense
                              alterity
                                ethics
                               breath
speak
I might have something to say. Lips slightly parted, portent of
a tongue that presses to speak, to draw you closer, to touch you
inside me. Longing in the eyes that dare to make contact, to face
you, only you. To catch sight of yourself in those eyes, to see
yourself loved. Moistness in both the eyes and the mouth, tears
and sp[l]it. My voice is a pulse (like a breath).

The borders are threatened!
The borders are threatened!

Speaking, the sovereignty of a self or of a self over an/other/s.             1. Alphonso Lingis, The
To speak in order to establish one’s own rightness is to speak in             Community of Those with
order to silence the other.1 This subject is conditioned by terror            Nothing in Common, Indianna
(of others).                                                                  University Press,
                                                                              Bloomington, 1994, 71
                                                                              2. I/i where I is the unified,
The mouth unfurls like a rose with its sweetly scented breath. To
                                                                              all-knowing subject and i the
open one’s mouth, to asser an I/i, to offer the I/i as a sign of the          plural, non-unitary subject.
self, like all those other I/is. This I of identity: call it a disposition;   Trinh T. Minh-ha, "Difference:
indifference or undifferentiating.2                                           'A Special Third World Women
                                                                              Issue'" in Woman, Native,
I am not self-confirming but something else, another other.                   Other: Writing Postcoloniality
                                                                              and Feminism, Indianna
                                                                              University Press,
                                                                              Bloomington, 1989, 79 - 116
love
To know one's self implies that all knowledge is self-centred.1    1. A. David Napier, Foreign
Lost in a search both purposeful and aimless. I am dedicated       Bodies: Performance, Art and
                                                                   Symbolic Anthropology,
to this search, as if to nothing else, faithful to nothing less    University of California Press,
than the search itself. Perhaps this is what is meant by being     Berkley, 1996, 177
in love with love.

My search is fugitive or errant [because I am not searching
for love]. I forage. I digress and my search turns to wandering.
Split and torn, flowing and melting. My straying is scratched
on broken ground. Where has this straying or scratching
taken me? Neither here nor there?

[Love overwhelms us most,] when we glimpse a part of
what is secret to him or her, what is hidden, that the other
does not see; as if there were a window by which we see
a certain heart beating. And this secret that we take by
surprise, we do not speak if it; we keep it ... we do not
                                                                   2. Helene Cixous and Mirielle
touch it.2                                                         Calle-Gruber, Rootprints:
                                                                   Memory and Life Writing,
                                                                   trans. Eric Prenowitz,
                                                                   Routledge, London, 1997, 17
Crossing into strange states, like laughter or love, strange
laughter. Blurring violence and tenderness, dissolute, this
body is lost in the blinding spasm of an impossible quest,
for love or alterity or joy or ethics. And love is impossible,
unseen. An unbearable anxiety. Like the mouth, open and
poised to speak, unable to make any sound, except to kiss.
Within strangeness, you find yourself without a language.3         3. Kathy Acker, Bodies of
Perhaps now is when I cry out because I cannot speak, all          Work: essays, Serpent's Tail,
                                                                   London, 1997, 144
that was said is suspended in an obscure silence.




My mouth, my hand. A glistening, silent touch to skin; this
inexplicable difference. The caress is the activity of erotic
love; it visualises what in love escapes vision, it lends itself
to description the way love does not. In description the
caress stands for love.4                                           4. Zygmunt Bauman,
                                                                   Postmodern Ethics, Blackwell
                                                                   Publishers, London, 1993, 92
ethos
The homogeneous ethos is that place in which 'they' are
most at home. It is the practice of sameness, the exclusion
of others, the reduction of difference to undesirability. The
other does not belong, a contingency of object, curiosity,
plunder, charity.

The exclusion is driven by a fantasy. The 'Other' becomes
at once the fantasy of a certain cultural space ... Rather
than disturbing a domesticated space which does not exist,
the other is what allows nationalists to believe in the possibility
of such a space eventuating.1                                         1. Ghassan Hage, White
                                                                      Nation, Pluto Press, Sydney,
                                                                      1998, 74
Like love, we are never quite there, at home, always out of
place [or in a place made up of other places]. But always             2. Georges Bataille, 'The
near, always approaching alterity, becoming stranger. It is           Psychological Structure of
multiplicity, this strangeness within. Seeing is not believing.       Facism' in Visions of Excess:
                                                                      Selected Writing, 1927 -
                                                                      1939, trans Allan Stoekl with
The heterogeneous is concerned with that which is impossible          Carl R. Lovitt and Donald M.
to assimilate2, that which is eliminated and undesirable, the         Leslie Jr, University of
                                                                      Minnesota Press, Minneapolis,
laugh and strangeness.                                                1994, 140
The heterogeneous ethos impels a a force or shock.3 Like            3. ibid., p 143
the stranger who becomes a force.

The ethos is the disposition, the sense. The ethos is an
attitude or habit of strangeness, of risk. It is an improvisation
of respect for all that is strange, all is strange.
open
One enters into conversation to become an other for the           1. Alphonso Lingus, The
                                                                  Community of Those Who
other.1 A gift for the other, of intent or purpose.The
                                                                  Have Nothing In Common,
heterogeneous is never closed, an open dialogue in encounters     Indiana University Press,
with strangers. To be open to multiciplicity is to be caught      Bloomington, 1994, 88
in dialogue, involved in an intersubjective ex/change, not
simply a force of self upon the other. In dialogue, the
relationship with identity - to assert belonging - is not easy.

The encounter in this multiplicity is a practice of radicial
strangeness: to be open to different perspectives and ways
of acting which challenge prevailing forms.2 In this encounter
the ethics are not inherent, but performed. The dialogue,         2. Christopher Falzon,
                                                                  Foucault and Social Dialogue:
as open, as ethics, does not inscribe right action, is an
                                                                  Beyond Fragmentation,
instrument of resistance and freedom. It is an inclination        Routledge, London, 1998, 6
towards joy, transgression and transformation.

Dialogue is always in process, in between, across, straying.
Like desire, dialogue [communication] is desire: it moves;        3. Elizabeth Grosz, Volatile
it does.3                                                         Bodies: Toward a Corporeal
                                                                  Feminism, Allen and Unwin,
                                                                  Sydney, 1994, 165
To be open, in dialogue, is to make room to speak, to listen
across simultaneous difference, congress in another space.
What is open? The mouth and the hand are open to each
other - straying tongue and fingers. Openness promotes
life, continuing human activity, in the form of resurgence
... the transgression of existing limits, and the revitalisating
production of new forms of thought and action.4                    4. Falzon, ibid., 59 - 60




To be ready for the pleasure of an alien caress across
quivering skin, sliding into a reticent - yet expectant - mouth
(or hole). Anticipating a gift. Seamless when nothing resists,
when all is yielding. Exhale a stale breath or thought, and
the rose unfurls. In pleasure, the petal touch spreads,
stroking all the surfaces of the world, all that is open and
in touch.
body
This body is foreign, striving to become something else. A
thought. A feeling. A self. Else. A name?

You are Something Else. [Becoming]

Else [Alterity?]. The name is scratched across this strangeness.
The name threatens 'other', or else. The Else who threatens
with the possibility of self: the body marked by difference,
disorder, the unformed, disintegration, forgetting.1               1. Allen S. Weiss, The
                                                                   Aesthetics of Excess, State
                                                                   University of New York Press,
Why don't you tell me how much you hate me?                        Albany, 1989, 6

Fucking cunt. [Hate replaces reason to become rationale.]

This painful and voluptuous body is fingered fisted fucked.
Shining. Stinking. This fucking cunt. Exquisite fuck. The
stench of burning flesh. This explicit and strange substance.
In times of hate, love is disobedience, an act against violence.
hybrid
What have you become?

I am broken and split. I have become something else.
Neither one nor the other, neither here nor there. Straying,
pushing, flowing, weeping, exceeding limits.

The hyphen is a line, not like an I.

The hyphen is a rupture, a scar, a line of flight.

It is not belonging, not owning. It is the in-between and
unpredictable. It is outside, only strangeness is recognisable
and ineluctable.
foreigner
But who are they - these others, these foreigners - and how
do we know them?

The foreign body is at once both transitory and not rooted
to any place, yet inextricably linked to a place of origin.
That place is not here, but there. To have arrived from over
there is simply to have arrived from elsewhere - somewhere,
not here. Somewhere is nowhere in particular and
subsequently, it may be everywhere or anywhere but here
which is not there.

This body, its voluptuous substance, does not belong, but
makes its place in the excluded territory. What does it mean
to belong: to be the same. Not belonging to any place, any
time, any love.1                                               1. Julia Kristeva, Strangers
                                                               to Ourselves, trans Leon S
                                                               Roudiez, Columbia University
                                                               Press, New York, 1991, 7
care
I can risk compassion because I will not die from your
suffering. Do I devalue compassion by simply saying that
I will not die if I feel for you and that I cannot feel your
suffering? Perhaps compassion is waste.

In compassion, the risk is not death, but the open hand,
either a slap or a caress. Suffering excites cruelty. Turn to
cruelty because of the temptation to close the openness, to
recoil from stetching out towards the Other, to fight back
the relentless, since voiceless, push of the 'unspoken
command'.1                                                        1. Zygmunt Bauman,
                                                                  Postmodern Ethics, Blackwell,
                                                                  London, 1993, 89
The encounter and affinity with the Other, knowing that the
Other is a source of fascination and of repulsion: to live with
this knowledge and this experience of terror.

The notion of the (heterogeneous) foreign body [can just
as well be expelled following a brutal rupture as reabsorbed
through the desire to put one's body and mind entirely in
a more or less violent state of expulsion (or projection).]
[It] permits one to note the elementary subjective identity
between types of excrement ... and everything that can be
seen as sacred, divine or marvellous.2                         2. Georges Bataille, 'The Use
                                                               Value of DAF Sade', Visions
                                                               of Excess, trans Allan Stoekl
Each time you renounce me, endanger me, I do not die.          with Carl R. Lovitt and Donald
But the suffering cannot be contained, my mouth explodes       M. Leslie Jr, University of
with screams and cries. The tenderness of skin against skin,   Minnesota Press, Minneapolis,
                                                               1985, 94
and a tongue licks wounds, swallows the expelled and the
undesirable. Everything is wasted, nothing is spared.
passion
Why did one also crave to embrace and couple with
strangers?1                                                     1. Alphonso Lingis, Excesses:
                                                                Eros and Culture, State
                                                                University of New York Press,
The embrace begins with a turn. Then a caress, an alien         Albany, 1983, 4
touch that slides between bodies and mouths. There is
wonder in this meeting, the erotic movement of passion, an
ecstatic impulse.

The movement is the figure of love, incapable of stopping
at a particular being, and rapidly passing from one to
another.2 The movement is the practice of intensity which       2. Georges Bataille, 'The Solar
                                                                Anus',Visions of Excess, trans
strays across skin. To risk everything. It is a journey into
                                                                Allan Stoekl with Carl R. Lovitt
strangeness, desire, tenderness that apprehends and afflicts.   and Donald M. Leslie Jr,
                                                                University of Minnesota Press,
                                                                Minneapolis, 1985, 7
The violence of love leads to the tenderness, the lasting
form of love, but it brings into the striving of one heart
towards another the same quality of disorder, the same
thirst for losing consciousness and the same after-taste of
                                                                3. Georges Bataille, Eroticism,
death that is found in the mutual desire for each other's       Marion Boyars Publishers,
body.3                                                          London, 1994 (fp 1957), 241
In pleasure and danger the pulse quickens. The heart fills
and floods. Such inspired tearing and trembling, moaning
and laughing. Ecstacy pushes from within, straining against
limits until it bursts. I drown in its flux, succumb to the
excess of its passionate and frenzied embrace.
other
There is a fantasy called 'other', a position appropriated for
history to firm the borders of space (and self). The other
is inappropriate, an error, stolen and negative. In a simple
symmetry, the other is contradiction, an aporia [... any
simplicity between us has to be a lie.]1                          1. Kathy Acker, 'The City',
                                                                  Bodies of Work: essays,
                                                                  Serpent's Tail, London, 1997,
To exceed the fantasy, a refusal to adopt the mask of self        109
or other, to shift the limit. Those others' actuality is always
subject to the continuous interpretation and re-interpretation
of their differences from 'us'. Each age and society re-creates
its 'Others'.2                                                    2. Edward Said, Orientalism,
                                                                  Pengiun, London, 1995 (fp
                                                                  1978), 332
To turn and walk away, as if a journey was mapped in a
dream, leaving only an empty space behind. Where are you
going? Towards all the strangeness in the world, the desire
for all that is un-desirable, all that is wasted. To refuse is
to consider the relations of difference other that hierarchy,
to conceptualise difference which is neither dichotomised
nor polarised but multiple or heterogeneous.
risk
How can I write risk? Or risk writing? To love so much that
all is called into question. We create risk when we endanger
something we value, whenever we test the relationship
between thrills and virtues. So to understand, or make
conscious, what constitutes a risk for us or our own personal
repertoire of risks is an important clue about what it is that
we do value; and it also enjoins us to consider the pleasure
of carelessness.1                                                 1. Adam Phillips, On Kissing,
                                                                  Tickling and Being Bored,
                                                                  Faber and Faber, London,
One takes risks not thinking that they will lose. Even in         1993, 29
safety there is risk. Even when nothing matters there is
risk. Because there is care. You might value that safety or
that nothingness. Seek danger and laugh in its face. Abandon
all that is held as truth or reason. Danger has a paralysing
effect, but if it is a mild danger it can excite desire.2 Feel    2. Georges Bataille, Eroticism,
that rousing joy, or thrilling fear: the intoxication that fear   Marion Boyars Publishers,
                                                                  London, 1994 (fp 1957), 267
can be.3 As if one thirsts for danger and fear. Risk disrupts     3. Georges Bataille, The
the balance between violent and tender love. Stakes out           Impossible, trans Robert
the edge. Overreachs the boundary and spills. Becomes             Hurley, City Lights Books, San
                                                                  Francisco, 1991 (fp 1962),
other.                                                            88
scar
There's a curiosity about wounds, about the alteration, about
the blood that was let and where it was spilled. Perhaps
someone slipped on it.

How did you get that scar? [Where did you come from?]

A request for an origin story about a gash that will not
[cannot] heal, the mark of a crossing, the suffering which
incites panic. Any kind of excitement will do - even hysteria
is ecstatic. Press my lips against that cut, bridging the sliced
and opened skin.

The figure of the scar provides another readable surface to
explore the cuts and joins that mark stories about cultural
belonging, cutting across different worlds.1 The uneven scar       1. Mary Zournazi, 'Historical
disrupts the smooth skin, a rem[a]inder of strangeness, of         Fictions, Uncanny Homes',
                                                                   John Lechte + Mary Zournazi
estrangement. A finger tip traces its crooked line. There is       (eds), After The Revolution:
more to this story than meets the eye: that's because there's      On Kristeva, Artspace,
more to do than see. Every scar tells a story.                     Sydney, 1998, 67
sense
To feel nothing except a mesmerising touch across tingling
skin. Fingertips gently brush across nakedness like a flame.

Spikes are driven into nakedness, piercing the pumping
heart, scratching at the pulsing membrane until warm blood
[or shit] oozes from that reticent hole or wound. To take,
embrace, taste that which is eliminated, to desire the
undesirable.

They say love burns, quivering and nervous, elusive and
smouldering. I choke on its dark smoke, [w]retching and
spitting. Obscenity exacerbates love.1                         1. Georges Bataille, The
                                                               Impossible, trans. Robert
                                                               Hurley, City Lights Books, San
To understand the pleasure and delirium - the imperative       Francisco, 1991 (fp 1962),
- of this scorching touch. This consuming flame which          28
searches and burns. It sings. My dance is shapeless and
flickering. It expires with a hiss.
alterity
To speak of subject as a relation to oneself, in process: of
others outside the formation of subject/object: disposition
from one position to another.

Mute acts and slow utterances of 'seeming otherwise'1 turn     1. Thomas Docherty,
                                                               Alterities: Criticism, History,
into strangeness: alterity is where the stranger is not in
                                                               Representation, Oxford
confinement as other, but something else.                      University Press, Oxford,
                                                               1996, 67-68
The stranger, like other tropes, is a politically informed
account of alternative subjectivity.2                          2. Elizabeth Grosz, Sexual
                                                               Subversions: Three French
                                                               Feminists, Allen and Unwin,
                                                               Sydney, 1989, xiv
ethics
Postmodern ethics are the ethics of caress. The caressing
hand characteristically remains open, never tightening into
a grip, never getting hold of; it touches without pressing,
it moves obeying the shape of the caressed body.1                  1. Zygmunt Bauman,
                                                                   Postmodern Ethics, Blackwell,
                                                                   London, 1996, (fp 1996), 92
When I say ethics I mean the imperative. The imperative
is that bond between strangers with whom we have no
kinship, no language, religion, land, age in common, with
whom no practicable field and no enterprise is possible.2          2. Alphonso Lingis, Foreign
                                                                   Bodies, Routledge, London,
                                                                   1994, 216
I mean touch or gesture, hand or mouth, experiencing the
feel of strangeness, its risk, the feeling that nothing is safe,
a flight into strangeness. A mouth opens for laughter or
screams or speech, but the closed mouth is beautiful and
safe.3 An open hand to strike or stroke. Violence or
tenderness. Or both.                                               3. Georges Bataille, 'Mouth',
                                                                   Visions of Excess, trans Allan
                                                                   Stoekl with Carl R. Lovitt and
To proceed by opposition? The stranger imposes respect,            Donald M. Leslie Jr, University
imposes radical strangeness as an improvised cleave through        of Minnesota Press,
                                                                   Minneapolis, 1985, 60
opposition.
An uncertain exchange between bodies, all kinds of
becomings, the mapping of substance, all kinds of flights.
An unfamiliar touch. A tactile familiarity.

Ethics is inconclusive. Circumstance. The caress is careless
and ambivalent, unbounded by tenderness or violence.

One takes nothing, apprehends nothing, comprehends
nothing.4                                                      4. Alphonso Lingis, Excesses:
                                                               Eros and Culture, State
                                                               University of New York,
                                                               Albany, 1983, 10
breath
I begin with a breath. I take a deep breath before speaking.
The breath is an expectant pause, the possibility of laughter.

It is a readying force which finds my voice [or my laughter]
and pushes it out of my mouth, my body. Strange what a
breath can do: a silent and unassuming push and pull of
air.

When I hold my breath, I swallow my words. With its push,
speech bubbles from my mouth in the realm of tremulous
sound. In each word I find my breath.

Words hold my breath until I gasp. They take my breath
away as if I have laughed an enduring laugh which burned
like fire and consumed my breath: until both the air and the
laugh expired.

To speak from a throat parched by blood. This language in
my mouth turns to fire, an uncertain flame.
I wish, I wish upon a burning star.

So I laugh and there is no turning back, not now that limits
have been exceeded. I cannot swallow these words, nor spit
them out.

So I open my mouth, like my hand, extend it to you: although
hand and mouth both signify, they communicate differently.1    1. Paul Carter, The Sound In
I slip between fingers and lips, and open my mouth as a        Between: Voice Space
                                                               Performance, NSW University
caress, my hand as a breath.                                   Press and New Endeavour
                                                               Press, Sydney, 1992, 136

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Speak :: a hypertext essay

  • 1. speak a hypertext essay Linda Carroli
  • 2. This book was written and designed by Linda Carroli. It reproduces texts and images from speak: a hypertext essay which received financial assistance from Arts Queensland. For J, for everything. Online: http://ensemble.va.com.au/speak Video stills and footage: Maria Giannake + Linda Carroli, Xenogeny Project Belly dancer: Maria Masselos Thanks to: John Armstrong, Michael Vann, Di Ball, electronic Writing Research ensemble, Ann Wulff, MAAP, Maria Giannake, Maria Masselos For more information: l.carroli@eudoramail.com (c) Linda Carroli 2002
  • 3. speak a hypertext essay speak love ethos open body hybrid foreigner care passion other risk scar sense alterity ethics breath
  • 4. speak I might have something to say. Lips slightly parted, portent of a tongue that presses to speak, to draw you closer, to touch you inside me. Longing in the eyes that dare to make contact, to face you, only you. To catch sight of yourself in those eyes, to see yourself loved. Moistness in both the eyes and the mouth, tears and sp[l]it. My voice is a pulse (like a breath). The borders are threatened! The borders are threatened! Speaking, the sovereignty of a self or of a self over an/other/s. 1. Alphonso Lingis, The To speak in order to establish one’s own rightness is to speak in Community of Those with order to silence the other.1 This subject is conditioned by terror Nothing in Common, Indianna (of others). University Press, Bloomington, 1994, 71 2. I/i where I is the unified, The mouth unfurls like a rose with its sweetly scented breath. To all-knowing subject and i the open one’s mouth, to asser an I/i, to offer the I/i as a sign of the plural, non-unitary subject. self, like all those other I/is. This I of identity: call it a disposition; Trinh T. Minh-ha, "Difference: indifference or undifferentiating.2 'A Special Third World Women Issue'" in Woman, Native, I am not self-confirming but something else, another other. Other: Writing Postcoloniality and Feminism, Indianna University Press, Bloomington, 1989, 79 - 116
  • 5. love To know one's self implies that all knowledge is self-centred.1 1. A. David Napier, Foreign Lost in a search both purposeful and aimless. I am dedicated Bodies: Performance, Art and Symbolic Anthropology, to this search, as if to nothing else, faithful to nothing less University of California Press, than the search itself. Perhaps this is what is meant by being Berkley, 1996, 177 in love with love. My search is fugitive or errant [because I am not searching for love]. I forage. I digress and my search turns to wandering. Split and torn, flowing and melting. My straying is scratched on broken ground. Where has this straying or scratching taken me? Neither here nor there? [Love overwhelms us most,] when we glimpse a part of what is secret to him or her, what is hidden, that the other does not see; as if there were a window by which we see a certain heart beating. And this secret that we take by surprise, we do not speak if it; we keep it ... we do not 2. Helene Cixous and Mirielle touch it.2 Calle-Gruber, Rootprints: Memory and Life Writing, trans. Eric Prenowitz, Routledge, London, 1997, 17
  • 6. Crossing into strange states, like laughter or love, strange laughter. Blurring violence and tenderness, dissolute, this body is lost in the blinding spasm of an impossible quest, for love or alterity or joy or ethics. And love is impossible, unseen. An unbearable anxiety. Like the mouth, open and poised to speak, unable to make any sound, except to kiss. Within strangeness, you find yourself without a language.3 3. Kathy Acker, Bodies of Perhaps now is when I cry out because I cannot speak, all Work: essays, Serpent's Tail, London, 1997, 144 that was said is suspended in an obscure silence. My mouth, my hand. A glistening, silent touch to skin; this inexplicable difference. The caress is the activity of erotic love; it visualises what in love escapes vision, it lends itself to description the way love does not. In description the caress stands for love.4 4. Zygmunt Bauman, Postmodern Ethics, Blackwell Publishers, London, 1993, 92
  • 7. ethos The homogeneous ethos is that place in which 'they' are most at home. It is the practice of sameness, the exclusion of others, the reduction of difference to undesirability. The other does not belong, a contingency of object, curiosity, plunder, charity. The exclusion is driven by a fantasy. The 'Other' becomes at once the fantasy of a certain cultural space ... Rather than disturbing a domesticated space which does not exist, the other is what allows nationalists to believe in the possibility of such a space eventuating.1 1. Ghassan Hage, White Nation, Pluto Press, Sydney, 1998, 74 Like love, we are never quite there, at home, always out of place [or in a place made up of other places]. But always 2. Georges Bataille, 'The near, always approaching alterity, becoming stranger. It is Psychological Structure of multiplicity, this strangeness within. Seeing is not believing. Facism' in Visions of Excess: Selected Writing, 1927 - 1939, trans Allan Stoekl with The heterogeneous is concerned with that which is impossible Carl R. Lovitt and Donald M. to assimilate2, that which is eliminated and undesirable, the Leslie Jr, University of Minnesota Press, Minneapolis, laugh and strangeness. 1994, 140
  • 8. The heterogeneous ethos impels a a force or shock.3 Like 3. ibid., p 143 the stranger who becomes a force. The ethos is the disposition, the sense. The ethos is an attitude or habit of strangeness, of risk. It is an improvisation of respect for all that is strange, all is strange.
  • 9. open One enters into conversation to become an other for the 1. Alphonso Lingus, The Community of Those Who other.1 A gift for the other, of intent or purpose.The Have Nothing In Common, heterogeneous is never closed, an open dialogue in encounters Indiana University Press, with strangers. To be open to multiciplicity is to be caught Bloomington, 1994, 88 in dialogue, involved in an intersubjective ex/change, not simply a force of self upon the other. In dialogue, the relationship with identity - to assert belonging - is not easy. The encounter in this multiplicity is a practice of radicial strangeness: to be open to different perspectives and ways of acting which challenge prevailing forms.2 In this encounter the ethics are not inherent, but performed. The dialogue, 2. Christopher Falzon, Foucault and Social Dialogue: as open, as ethics, does not inscribe right action, is an Beyond Fragmentation, instrument of resistance and freedom. It is an inclination Routledge, London, 1998, 6 towards joy, transgression and transformation. Dialogue is always in process, in between, across, straying. Like desire, dialogue [communication] is desire: it moves; 3. Elizabeth Grosz, Volatile it does.3 Bodies: Toward a Corporeal Feminism, Allen and Unwin, Sydney, 1994, 165
  • 10. To be open, in dialogue, is to make room to speak, to listen across simultaneous difference, congress in another space. What is open? The mouth and the hand are open to each other - straying tongue and fingers. Openness promotes life, continuing human activity, in the form of resurgence ... the transgression of existing limits, and the revitalisating production of new forms of thought and action.4 4. Falzon, ibid., 59 - 60 To be ready for the pleasure of an alien caress across quivering skin, sliding into a reticent - yet expectant - mouth (or hole). Anticipating a gift. Seamless when nothing resists, when all is yielding. Exhale a stale breath or thought, and the rose unfurls. In pleasure, the petal touch spreads, stroking all the surfaces of the world, all that is open and in touch.
  • 11. body This body is foreign, striving to become something else. A thought. A feeling. A self. Else. A name? You are Something Else. [Becoming] Else [Alterity?]. The name is scratched across this strangeness. The name threatens 'other', or else. The Else who threatens with the possibility of self: the body marked by difference, disorder, the unformed, disintegration, forgetting.1 1. Allen S. Weiss, The Aesthetics of Excess, State University of New York Press, Why don't you tell me how much you hate me? Albany, 1989, 6 Fucking cunt. [Hate replaces reason to become rationale.] This painful and voluptuous body is fingered fisted fucked. Shining. Stinking. This fucking cunt. Exquisite fuck. The stench of burning flesh. This explicit and strange substance. In times of hate, love is disobedience, an act against violence.
  • 12. hybrid What have you become? I am broken and split. I have become something else. Neither one nor the other, neither here nor there. Straying, pushing, flowing, weeping, exceeding limits. The hyphen is a line, not like an I. The hyphen is a rupture, a scar, a line of flight. It is not belonging, not owning. It is the in-between and unpredictable. It is outside, only strangeness is recognisable and ineluctable.
  • 13. foreigner But who are they - these others, these foreigners - and how do we know them? The foreign body is at once both transitory and not rooted to any place, yet inextricably linked to a place of origin. That place is not here, but there. To have arrived from over there is simply to have arrived from elsewhere - somewhere, not here. Somewhere is nowhere in particular and subsequently, it may be everywhere or anywhere but here which is not there. This body, its voluptuous substance, does not belong, but makes its place in the excluded territory. What does it mean to belong: to be the same. Not belonging to any place, any time, any love.1 1. Julia Kristeva, Strangers to Ourselves, trans Leon S Roudiez, Columbia University Press, New York, 1991, 7
  • 14. care I can risk compassion because I will not die from your suffering. Do I devalue compassion by simply saying that I will not die if I feel for you and that I cannot feel your suffering? Perhaps compassion is waste. In compassion, the risk is not death, but the open hand, either a slap or a caress. Suffering excites cruelty. Turn to cruelty because of the temptation to close the openness, to recoil from stetching out towards the Other, to fight back the relentless, since voiceless, push of the 'unspoken command'.1 1. Zygmunt Bauman, Postmodern Ethics, Blackwell, London, 1993, 89 The encounter and affinity with the Other, knowing that the Other is a source of fascination and of repulsion: to live with this knowledge and this experience of terror. The notion of the (heterogeneous) foreign body [can just as well be expelled following a brutal rupture as reabsorbed through the desire to put one's body and mind entirely in a more or less violent state of expulsion (or projection).]
  • 15. [It] permits one to note the elementary subjective identity between types of excrement ... and everything that can be seen as sacred, divine or marvellous.2 2. Georges Bataille, 'The Use Value of DAF Sade', Visions of Excess, trans Allan Stoekl Each time you renounce me, endanger me, I do not die. with Carl R. Lovitt and Donald But the suffering cannot be contained, my mouth explodes M. Leslie Jr, University of with screams and cries. The tenderness of skin against skin, Minnesota Press, Minneapolis, 1985, 94 and a tongue licks wounds, swallows the expelled and the undesirable. Everything is wasted, nothing is spared.
  • 16. passion Why did one also crave to embrace and couple with strangers?1 1. Alphonso Lingis, Excesses: Eros and Culture, State University of New York Press, The embrace begins with a turn. Then a caress, an alien Albany, 1983, 4 touch that slides between bodies and mouths. There is wonder in this meeting, the erotic movement of passion, an ecstatic impulse. The movement is the figure of love, incapable of stopping at a particular being, and rapidly passing from one to another.2 The movement is the practice of intensity which 2. Georges Bataille, 'The Solar Anus',Visions of Excess, trans strays across skin. To risk everything. It is a journey into Allan Stoekl with Carl R. Lovitt strangeness, desire, tenderness that apprehends and afflicts. and Donald M. Leslie Jr, University of Minnesota Press, Minneapolis, 1985, 7 The violence of love leads to the tenderness, the lasting form of love, but it brings into the striving of one heart towards another the same quality of disorder, the same thirst for losing consciousness and the same after-taste of 3. Georges Bataille, Eroticism, death that is found in the mutual desire for each other's Marion Boyars Publishers, body.3 London, 1994 (fp 1957), 241
  • 17. In pleasure and danger the pulse quickens. The heart fills and floods. Such inspired tearing and trembling, moaning and laughing. Ecstacy pushes from within, straining against limits until it bursts. I drown in its flux, succumb to the excess of its passionate and frenzied embrace.
  • 18. other There is a fantasy called 'other', a position appropriated for history to firm the borders of space (and self). The other is inappropriate, an error, stolen and negative. In a simple symmetry, the other is contradiction, an aporia [... any simplicity between us has to be a lie.]1 1. Kathy Acker, 'The City', Bodies of Work: essays, Serpent's Tail, London, 1997, To exceed the fantasy, a refusal to adopt the mask of self 109 or other, to shift the limit. Those others' actuality is always subject to the continuous interpretation and re-interpretation of their differences from 'us'. Each age and society re-creates its 'Others'.2 2. Edward Said, Orientalism, Pengiun, London, 1995 (fp 1978), 332 To turn and walk away, as if a journey was mapped in a dream, leaving only an empty space behind. Where are you going? Towards all the strangeness in the world, the desire for all that is un-desirable, all that is wasted. To refuse is to consider the relations of difference other that hierarchy, to conceptualise difference which is neither dichotomised nor polarised but multiple or heterogeneous.
  • 19. risk How can I write risk? Or risk writing? To love so much that all is called into question. We create risk when we endanger something we value, whenever we test the relationship between thrills and virtues. So to understand, or make conscious, what constitutes a risk for us or our own personal repertoire of risks is an important clue about what it is that we do value; and it also enjoins us to consider the pleasure of carelessness.1 1. Adam Phillips, On Kissing, Tickling and Being Bored, Faber and Faber, London, One takes risks not thinking that they will lose. Even in 1993, 29 safety there is risk. Even when nothing matters there is risk. Because there is care. You might value that safety or that nothingness. Seek danger and laugh in its face. Abandon all that is held as truth or reason. Danger has a paralysing effect, but if it is a mild danger it can excite desire.2 Feel 2. Georges Bataille, Eroticism, that rousing joy, or thrilling fear: the intoxication that fear Marion Boyars Publishers, London, 1994 (fp 1957), 267 can be.3 As if one thirsts for danger and fear. Risk disrupts 3. Georges Bataille, The the balance between violent and tender love. Stakes out Impossible, trans Robert the edge. Overreachs the boundary and spills. Becomes Hurley, City Lights Books, San Francisco, 1991 (fp 1962), other. 88
  • 20. scar There's a curiosity about wounds, about the alteration, about the blood that was let and where it was spilled. Perhaps someone slipped on it. How did you get that scar? [Where did you come from?] A request for an origin story about a gash that will not [cannot] heal, the mark of a crossing, the suffering which incites panic. Any kind of excitement will do - even hysteria is ecstatic. Press my lips against that cut, bridging the sliced and opened skin. The figure of the scar provides another readable surface to explore the cuts and joins that mark stories about cultural belonging, cutting across different worlds.1 The uneven scar 1. Mary Zournazi, 'Historical disrupts the smooth skin, a rem[a]inder of strangeness, of Fictions, Uncanny Homes', John Lechte + Mary Zournazi estrangement. A finger tip traces its crooked line. There is (eds), After The Revolution: more to this story than meets the eye: that's because there's On Kristeva, Artspace, more to do than see. Every scar tells a story. Sydney, 1998, 67
  • 21. sense To feel nothing except a mesmerising touch across tingling skin. Fingertips gently brush across nakedness like a flame. Spikes are driven into nakedness, piercing the pumping heart, scratching at the pulsing membrane until warm blood [or shit] oozes from that reticent hole or wound. To take, embrace, taste that which is eliminated, to desire the undesirable. They say love burns, quivering and nervous, elusive and smouldering. I choke on its dark smoke, [w]retching and spitting. Obscenity exacerbates love.1 1. Georges Bataille, The Impossible, trans. Robert Hurley, City Lights Books, San To understand the pleasure and delirium - the imperative Francisco, 1991 (fp 1962), - of this scorching touch. This consuming flame which 28 searches and burns. It sings. My dance is shapeless and flickering. It expires with a hiss.
  • 22. alterity To speak of subject as a relation to oneself, in process: of others outside the formation of subject/object: disposition from one position to another. Mute acts and slow utterances of 'seeming otherwise'1 turn 1. Thomas Docherty, Alterities: Criticism, History, into strangeness: alterity is where the stranger is not in Representation, Oxford confinement as other, but something else. University Press, Oxford, 1996, 67-68 The stranger, like other tropes, is a politically informed account of alternative subjectivity.2 2. Elizabeth Grosz, Sexual Subversions: Three French Feminists, Allen and Unwin, Sydney, 1989, xiv
  • 23. ethics Postmodern ethics are the ethics of caress. The caressing hand characteristically remains open, never tightening into a grip, never getting hold of; it touches without pressing, it moves obeying the shape of the caressed body.1 1. Zygmunt Bauman, Postmodern Ethics, Blackwell, London, 1996, (fp 1996), 92 When I say ethics I mean the imperative. The imperative is that bond between strangers with whom we have no kinship, no language, religion, land, age in common, with whom no practicable field and no enterprise is possible.2 2. Alphonso Lingis, Foreign Bodies, Routledge, London, 1994, 216 I mean touch or gesture, hand or mouth, experiencing the feel of strangeness, its risk, the feeling that nothing is safe, a flight into strangeness. A mouth opens for laughter or screams or speech, but the closed mouth is beautiful and safe.3 An open hand to strike or stroke. Violence or tenderness. Or both. 3. Georges Bataille, 'Mouth', Visions of Excess, trans Allan Stoekl with Carl R. Lovitt and To proceed by opposition? The stranger imposes respect, Donald M. Leslie Jr, University imposes radical strangeness as an improvised cleave through of Minnesota Press, Minneapolis, 1985, 60 opposition.
  • 24. An uncertain exchange between bodies, all kinds of becomings, the mapping of substance, all kinds of flights. An unfamiliar touch. A tactile familiarity. Ethics is inconclusive. Circumstance. The caress is careless and ambivalent, unbounded by tenderness or violence. One takes nothing, apprehends nothing, comprehends nothing.4 4. Alphonso Lingis, Excesses: Eros and Culture, State University of New York, Albany, 1983, 10
  • 25. breath I begin with a breath. I take a deep breath before speaking. The breath is an expectant pause, the possibility of laughter. It is a readying force which finds my voice [or my laughter] and pushes it out of my mouth, my body. Strange what a breath can do: a silent and unassuming push and pull of air. When I hold my breath, I swallow my words. With its push, speech bubbles from my mouth in the realm of tremulous sound. In each word I find my breath. Words hold my breath until I gasp. They take my breath away as if I have laughed an enduring laugh which burned like fire and consumed my breath: until both the air and the laugh expired. To speak from a throat parched by blood. This language in my mouth turns to fire, an uncertain flame.
  • 26. I wish, I wish upon a burning star. So I laugh and there is no turning back, not now that limits have been exceeded. I cannot swallow these words, nor spit them out. So I open my mouth, like my hand, extend it to you: although hand and mouth both signify, they communicate differently.1 1. Paul Carter, The Sound In I slip between fingers and lips, and open my mouth as a Between: Voice Space Performance, NSW University caress, my hand as a breath. Press and New Endeavour Press, Sydney, 1992, 136